… Until my back tire blew out.
I stopped, pulled off to the side of the road and to my luck, no sooner did I remove my punctured tube then the aid-van arrived. Out stepped a tutu-wearing bike-cowboy named Rorey who kindly asked me to step aside while he replaced the tube, pumped the tire, and replaced the tire onto my bike in what seemed like seconds flat. It was like watching a seasoned, professional cowboy rope a calf at a rodeo.
Disclosure: no bikes were harmed in the production of this story.
By now, I was about 4 hours into this event. I'd finished my pre-run-not-swim and the bike portion of the event and was thrilled to be slipping on my running shoes to run the paths I’d trod thousands of times in the past. This was going to be my strongest sport. I had this!
The run comprised two loops each 6.55 miles long. After the first mile or so, I was really feeling it—totally exhausted. My legs were throbbing, my lungs were screaming, and it was scorching hot July afternoon heat, but I was upright and still putting one foot in front of the other. I just continued with my mantra, "Energy in. Tension out. Energy in. Tension out."
On my first go around the loop, I recognized the furthest point of the loop. I figured this because there was an aid station with both water and energy drinks on a table as well as balloons and other decorations with and a speaker blasting hip-hop … that is until the music started cursing loudly which made the very worried woman assigned to direct traffic at that aid station to scramble and change the music.
At the aid station, there was a T in the road with an arrow pointing right and a sign that said 2.5 miles to lap/finish. I looked right and saw other runners in that direction and started hobbling in that direction just as some decidedly more wholesome music started over the speakers.
My muscles were burning, I was exhausted, and I was moving slowly but I told myself that I just needed to finish this loop and repeat it one more time and then I would be finished.
When it started to feel impossible, I'd look down at my arms to access my lifeline: I had used a Sharpie to write in big black letters, "Sennie" on my left arm and "Ellie" on my right. Seeing the names of my two most favorite people was magic. It gave me my heart wings and put my spirit back into the race.
As I finished the first loop, there they were: Sennie and Ellie. I hadn’t seen them since the night before and seeing them was everything to me. Also accompanying Sen and Elio were my mom and sis. What made that special in retrospect is that both of whom have since passed away. I was buoyed to have all 4 of them—Sen, Elio, my mom and sister—standing there, cheering me on (except Elio who was only 1 and was just getting the hang of standing, and who was probably confused by all the commotion, and likely just happy that he was spending a Saturday afternoon NOT getting schlepped around in the jog stroller).
"One more loop! I'll be back here in an hour," I shouted as I bounded off for my second loop, my fists pumping in the air.
But my jolt of enthusiasm quickly thinned. Every mile got harder and harder. I was reduced to making little goals for myself, "Just get to the mile marker, that's all.” Soon, my goals were reduced to the next half mile marker and eventually simply to the next turn in the road.
On those last 6.1 miles, I was running on fumes. This was the most difficult thing I’d ever done to my body. I was utterly spent, my reserves were gone, and it was sheer endurance to keep going. One. Step. At. A. Time.
Finally, like an oasis in the desert, I arrived at the furthest aid station, the point with the drinks, balloons, and speaker which was now hymns or something. Finishing felt almost impossible but I gave myself a pep talk by telling myself again that all I had to do was make the turn and head back along the road for the last 2.5 miles and to the finish line. I was on the home stretch!
But then I saw something horrifying.
Devastating.